Thankful, Grateful, Blessed

As we celebrate what we are thankful for this week, I give my greatest thank to this little lady right here. She’s everything I ever wanted…and more. Motherhood is hard…at times, it feels impossible. Single parenting ain’t easy! (I say that lightly, as I’m grateful for help from my family…what would we do without grandparents?!) She’s given me the strength and determination to do it to the best of my ability. She gives me unconditional love and the “bestest” friendship that life offers. She’s the one person who will always be there to laugh with me…or at me. 😉 For these things, I am thankful, grateful and blessed!

2 weeks post surgery


Life can sometimes be an emotional roller coaster. Some days you’re up and some days you’re down. After rereading my last post after surgery, I realized that no matter how positively you frame your situation the tears will sneak up on you (Yes it could have been worse and people are starving somewhere). But no matter how many chin up days you have in a row you will break down because being laid up is just HARD. It’s hard on the body, it’s hard on the will, it’s hard on everyone around you, and all that hardness will catch up with you, when you least expect it. So prepare to open the floodgates. You’re not crazy (well, no more than anyone else).

Although it’s tempting to hibernate until you’re better, some things are essential to feeling like you haven’t been excommunicated from the planet. Like your appearance. As superficial as it sounds, looking good is feeling good, and if you sacrifice your hair, your wax or any other routine that makes you feel like you, you’ll find your soul on a downward spiral. So do yourself a favor and get whatever help you need to keep your beauty routine intact. It makes a world of difference.

Everywhere you go, people will ask how you broke your foot. You will need to come up with 3 versions, a short version, long version and a exciting (fabricated) version depending on how much time you have to tell your story. After your 100th time don’t be shocked by your crazy desire to punch someone in the throat. My fabricated version is I was climbing El Capitan, you know free solo — no biggie.) 😉

Lastly, another thing I’ve realized this week — the outdoors is all that it’s cracked up to be. A forced hibernation really makes you crave some fresh air, no matter the weather. Just get outside and never take mother nature or good health for granted.

Here is to a blissful speedy recovery and a better 3rd week. ❤

Is social media toxic?

In a world where the Kardashians body/booty are so glorified we need to remember that what we see of them and others, aren’t always reality. It’s ok to use that as an inspiration but don’t get too caught up in it. And GUYS, don’t make comments or compare girls to these heavily edited Insta models you follow.

I’ll be the first to admit that pics are all about good angles and lighting. Remember social media is not real life and never let anyone’s photo make you feel insecure about yourself. If you don’t look like her or she doesn’t look like you, that’s how it’s meant to be. You are meant to be you and no one else.

Social media has become a toxic mirror. If you want to change your physical appearance, do it for yourself and not to meet a beauty standard.

Having worked so hard to lose almost 40 lbs within the last 18 months to now being skinny-shamed. Women just can’t win. We constantly have our bodies being policed by society and I’m so over it!!

Don’t be so hard on yourself and stop comparing yourself to others. When you look at your reflection, all you see is your physical form. You’re looking for flaws. But remember when others see you, they see your personality and intelligence also – the whole you.

What a fractured ankle has taught me…

Productivity of pretty much any sort has always helped me avoid depression and anxiety. So when I found myself injured and unable to leave my house, I immediately became agitated. I didn’t know what to do with myself, and as a chronic over-thinker my initial tendency was to lie in bed or on the couch, mentally beating myself up and letting my mind run rampant with thoughts that were mostly negative and unwarranted.

I tried to stay mindful of the fact that while it might not feel like it and seems initially counterintuitive, letting yourself rest is NOT time wasted.

I started to embrace the power of rest, and before long was actually having a pretty great time reading and binge-watching shows and films I’d been meaning to check out. (I’m working my way through everything on Disney +) I accepted that it was okay to let my ankle heal, and that gaining something from a book or show, even if it was just a few minutes of laughter, was something worth feeling good about.

Even though you may not be able to exercise or even move very much depending on your injury, you can control what you eat, what you drink and your attitude toward your health.

One thing I worried about is gaining back weight I had lost. Since I can’t burn as many calories through movement as I had become accustomed to, I make sure to eat healthier and get the vitamins and nutrients I need to heal a fractured bone.

Writing or blogging your thoughts and feelings is a great way to connect to the emotions and literally get them out.

You will get better and no matter how sad, depressed, anxious or agitated you feel, always remember that. It may take some work, and it may take some time, but it will be worth doing whatever it takes.

Here’s to a blissful speedy recovery, happiness and good health!

34

It’s my 34th anniversary of the day I was born, my 34th trip around the sun. It’s the time I get to reflect on the last year. Getting older doesn’t scare me. I revel in the fact that I’m older and therefore a little wiser just having experienced more along the way.

I guess in your 30’s you begin to really understand who you are—strengths, weaknesses, habits, and knowing and accepting yourself allows for a whole new level of appreciation of life. It’s all about living in gratitude (even grateful for all those new fun “traits” you have at an older age). I mean, in our 30’s we’ve all experienced enough heartbreak and disappointments to truly appreciate the areas in life which we’ve been blessed.

I am choosing to live in my own purpose, UNAPOLOGETICALLY ME. This has been a year of massive emotional progress. I am a completely a different person than I was this time last year, and still have a long way to go.

Personal growth is an ongoing process and it is never “finished”. I am proud of myself for the changes I’ve made and challenges I’ve overcome. It hasn’t been all rainbows and 🦄, there have been tears, internal tantrums, anxiety and sadness. But it’s all helped make me into who I am today. I’m proud of the woman I am and believe in the woman I aspire to be. I wouldn’t want to be in a world where I’m not growing, not becoming stronger and more self-aware.

I’m beyond grateful for everything I’ve gained, and everything I’ve let go. I’m grateful for tough lessons learned and the sweet peace of healing. I’m grateful for the wisdom and humility. I’m grateful for strength and rest. I feel like my 30s have brought about a freedom that words can’t really describe.

Today is all you have. You can certainly hope that there will be a tomorrow, but truly, there are no guarantees. I’m a planner and am constantly thinking of the “what’s next” in my life. But lately, I’ve started to appreciate the “now.” I try to remember that getting older is a privilege and that with each year we have the opportunity to be the person we fully desire to be, and share time with those who mean the most.

Truthfully, my heart feels more whole than it ever has and I’m happier than I’ve ever been. Of course there are days when I find myself down, but Aria is always there to remind me how blessed I am. If there were ever a time in my life when I felt least alone, it is now. Here is to another year of learning, growing, loving and living.

Remember, it’s okay to do life backwards, or sideways, or upside down. It is, after all, LIFE.

My resolutions for my thirty-fourth year:

Take in some musuems.

Make more time to read.

Break curfew more often. I’m such a 👵.

Get back into some rhythm of exercise.

Focus on the present.

Turn my phone off more frequently.

Blog and take more photos.

You are the best adventure

Hiking trails has been our new found love. I’ve never been much of an outdoorsy girl but have been wanting to step up my fitness. The best part is doing it with you.

I mean outdoors are perfect for toddlers… digging in the dirt, picking up twigs and gathering up leaves. It’s basically a big playground for them. Best part, it’s free.

The world is a natural learning environment. School is great, but the world is the most effective teacher. It is so much more interesting and allows them to be little explorers.

Adventures together create special moments and shared experiences we’ll never forget.

Your life is just beginning

I can’t wait to watch you write the next chapters. You are sweet, yet strong and really determined. I can’t prepare you for everything in life, I know you will learn many lessons on your own.

But if I can help you a little along the way, here are some things I’d like to share with you.

Know yourself. Find your passions and strength.

Be true to yourself. Don’t worry about pleasing anyone, allow your true colors to shine as you are.

Love and believe in yourself. True confidence comes from within, it stems from a positive attitude and belief in yourself.

Explore out of your comfort zone and your growth will come overtime. Whatever path you choose, follow your passion.