Dance season just ended and soon you’ll be finished with preschool. I just can’t believe it. When you are older you’ll understand how fast time flies.
How you have grown in just 4 years! From an infant, to a toddler, preschooler, we’ve been through many, way too short stages. You may not remember it all, but I do. Don’t worry, though. Your early stages are well documented. As my first and only child, I have several thousand photos of you. As your mother, I can tell you about almost each and every one.
When I was pregnant, I used to wonder about who you’d be after you were born. Now I still find myself wondering who you’ll be as an older child, a teenager, and even an adult. I am excited, but a little nervous too, about the unknown.
I worry about whether I’ve been the mom you need and what I can do better. Do I hug you enough? Am I too firm with you or not firm enough? Do I give you the attention you need? What other ways can I help you to become more independent as you grow? How can I provide the right amount of support in the process?
I’m struggling with all of this a bit. You’re only 4 years old. Transitions are hard, especially for a sensitive child like you. My journey with you has been this maze, full of twists and turns. Together we hit roadblocks and have had to find other routes to the correct path. Other times we have an easier time finding our way.
No matter how disheartened or aggravated I get through the process, please know I am trying my best. I still have so much to learn about how to be your mom. However, you’ve done a good job teaching me a thing or two so far.
As you grow, I watch and learn from you every day. You are the most observant child I know. You’ve taught me that life is so much more interesting when you notice the little things.
I love and admire your creativity, imagination and spirit. Watching you has given me so many creative ideas. I hope you’ll use these strengths in the future; they will get you far.
As much as your shenanigans drive me crazy, I learn more about being patient all the time.
But I want you to know, there is no other little girl I’d rather take this journey with. Behind all my worries, there is hope. I can’t wait to see where this path takes us.
I want you to know that you should never stop learning and noticing the little things. Keep loving, keep trying, keep dreaming, and believe in yourself, because I sure believe in you!
Love,
Mom